[Music] welcome to ear biscuits I’m link and I’m Rhett joining us today at the round table of dim lighting is a hilarious youtuber and comedian Lee Newton of course you know Lee as one of the co-hosts of the popular news and current events show on YouTube SourceFed Farley Lucille Ball and Frank Ralph Waldo Emerson the cast of heroes of course but a robber from Jacksonville Florida might have to be added to my list why a robber or hero robbed Jerome barbecue last week and so $4,000 worth of chicken wings and fries from the restaurant not sure I know what you’re thinking wait I hear us a thief why are you guys praising him but this is Farscape up jerks also how did he do it and why now we always known Lee is extremely funny intelligent we’ve enjoyed collaborating with her she was a guest on the mythical show but we didn’t really know her too well personally and we definitely didn’t know the backstory of the health problems that she has dealt with since she was a child yeah I really 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jam you make jam I make jam I do so you go home to where I go home to Yosemite well a little town right outside you somebody actually but I say Oh somebody cuz no one knows where what’s cold is course gold horse of course go horse what it’s like its cargo like a mining town it’s a mining town it is it still actually has like weird little mining things you can always find and you can find the mining holes and you go there and it’s magical but there’s not a Walmart in course gold blood no no there’s a Walmart like in Fresno which is about an hour away from enroute so you stop there i’ma get my mason jars on the way and then you make the jam once you get back into homestead yes I mean I make a lot of it at my home in LA but still there’s stuff you know like I go up north before Christmas because I still very much love and adore my parents some people don’t feel that way about your parents no no I actually I think most people love and adore them they’re kind of those there’s those people that you just they’re just the most alike for humans in the world and you just love them and I want to be around them all the time and I really you know jam with him I do I do I would never live with them because I think I would drive them insane but also and they would too because they love elementary on CBS and I can’t get into it is the jam making a family affair or I’m gonna make Jam alone in my father there’s a most impossible person to buy presents for ever because it wouldn’t he’s one of those that like if you want something he gets it and that’s what it is any research is it well he deserves it he deserves it he works hard he’s a great guy everybody likes so I last year like three years ago I was like I’m gonna make jam for him I’m just gonna cuz he likes sweet things ever made Jane no never had you made stuff like foods I make food you know it’s a natural propensity towards women that we bake you know but yeah I’d made stuff and then I just decided to make him Jam and then it like I turned out to be OK at it and the kind of thing what kind of jam oh well auntie Lee’s Jam the one that is really big is razzmatazz it’s like a lemon raspberry so yeah you branded it yes I have 100% branded a now and now like the brother-in-law is like it’s that good it’s it’s a thing it’s a thing now so all types you get types I got razzmatazz blackberry Fields it’s a real another really big one Strawberry Fields but that’s like with a little bit of Apple like there’s a lot of different things last year I tried a Christmas one it was like cranberry and apple and so you’re gonna are you thinking about like fall back I’m thinking Shark Tank but maybe that’s just me I’m here at Christmas jam but I just don’t see it taking up much further than my father and brother in law’s palette and actually everyone in my family cuz we’re big do you have stickers auntie leaves stickers but you print on an inkjet aunty Lee made this it’s good to be to be able to give a gift that is something that you’ve created yes especially if the people like it yes it’s like a big deal yeah that’s like the that’s like the perfect alignment for a great gift my dad makes his own barbecue sauce I don’t know if I told you this oh you’ve had it but it’s I’ve had it it’s a tomato chicken yeah it’s a chicken barbecue sauce and more than a born at a pork but you can put it on anything it’s it’s a vinegary but still tomato we based things which is is a very North Carolina yeah oh yeah no need to go into detail except that at Christmastime we all meet at his mom’s house in Nana and Papa’s house have more people than ever this past Christmas and everyone’s opening their gifts and then we finally get to a point where dad leaves the room then he comes back and he’s got these big jugs he’s handing out jugs and it’s just like Costco size so on the jug it’s just Costco no like a to and from size it no no you don’t I guess once you taste it you’re happy I guess but there we used ketchup and but I don’t get one because of the cross country track yeah you don’t want that vinegar so it’s gold used to order barbecue sauce from a man in Mississippi that made it out of his basement and it was like and he recently the old guy passed away apparently and when I was like hoarding it but that stuff is worth its weight in gold and he’d better ship it to you if it’s good I mean if you can put it on it I’m a big barbecue sauce on everything I really like your dad maybe work out a trade yeah I think that’s like what you jam for sauce yeah I’m just saying you know I’m a man who has that kind of discretion about barbecue sauce and he does you know my rub like Oh what does your dad do he’s a pastor really what what of what variety it’s actually a non-denominational Church and it’s up again in the mountain area does he have a beard no he has a mustache yes only oh no no I think I remember you showing us a picture of your dad’s mustache one two maybe I’m that’s coming back to me maybe when we shot for the mythical show it’s something else is your home screen on your phone yes I probably might have been my home screen I’m like my beautiful parents so what I mean is this like a small Valley Church or a actually a pretty big church especially for the area it’s actually a very big church and they kind of they’re nondenominational and they’re very open loving and they kind of specialize and people that recover our recovery like so you know addicts and all that they have a lot of programs for those like wonderful people and it’s kind of they have big hearts in that sense and so it was this what he’s done your entire life mm-hmm so you grew up as a yes i PK there’s a PK a pastor’s kid and I think I was a big reason why he went back into the ministry because really before me he was doing just fine in real estate actually Morpha and then I think he ever did in ministry as far as like money-wise but yeah it was a big reason why he went back into the ministry because I came along and I had a horrific heart problem and it kind of Oh me come along man born born okay yeah born so he went into the ministry he wanted to be a minister and then and then he got caught up in life and then he was really good at real estate and he was really good at business and he was making a lot of money they lived in Oregon and you know him and my mom both you know oh he retired at mid-30s and and had a whole bunch of you know we had a goats and kind of like a big thing out and a big ranch out in Oregon and then and then I came along and company went under and I had a horrible heart problem and and so it was kind of a big reassess moment for him I think okay so excited horrible heart moment little heart let’s get into this problem it’s my new let’s unpack it I mean and and I mean it must this must be big sounds big when was this discovered this was discovered I was born to a midwife like I was born in a with him and wife because my mom had had both of her other kids older brother and sister in a hospital so you know low low chances of anything bad happening and it was also the 80s so they didn’t know better but they had me at to a midwife and then I am and then I 14 days into it I think my father was like something’s wrong like the kids blue and not responding I’m just finding in the way that she should and my mother was like she’s perfect leave her alone she’s my baby because mothers do that there’s hormones and and then it was one of those things where he was like no we’re going to the hospital so took me to the hospital at 14 days I had my first open-heart surgery because basically what it is in a long-term is my heart is backwards two out of the four chambers are missing a meaning Artic are Chris fused a lot of like a like valves and yada yada yada so you seem to have just lift lists at least four four major problems major things yes yeah missing chambers missing backwards backwards those are two big ones right yeah ventral septal defect atrial septal defect pulmonary stenosis transposition of the great vessels is what the technical terms of it all are but it basically means that you know missing valves meeting valves need to be replaced missing chambers yadda yadda but the cool thing is if all of that hadn’t been if I had just had one diagnosis I would have been dead if I had just had two of the diagnoses I would have been dead but because I had multiple ones of them they all kind of worked out all the problems work together together to make me alive 14 days Wow yeah so I mean you know it’s kind of magical beautiful thing and so what did they do when they no they went in when I was a baby they went in through my back because I was little and they can’t go in through your front and so they basically you know patched up the are who the holes in my heart and then they reworked everything to where it’s still backwards it’ll always be backwards it’s just what it is they can’t flip it because that’s apparently really dangerous um that’s already connected to everything so rewired everything did a valve and then throughout my whole life I’ve had at two years I had another one it was more like 14 months they had another one and then at seven I had a really big one which is replacing this valve and making sure everything is actually succinct and okay because it was a heart growing and they needed to fix it mm-hmm and then at 13 I had another one and there’s you know I mean there’s a lot of different multiple things that go along with it so you I mean so you remember the seven year old I remember the seven year old one viciously yeah I mean I like 13 months old you wouldn’t know no I know I don’t remember that I remember being a sick kid that’s all I remember and I only what yes sir what were the symptoms as a you know four four five six year old I would always be blue so I always had exigent deprivation so I was always had blue lips blue face it was called they’re called blue babies actually with people with heart problems and so I would always have blue lips and people I was also very little I was so little I was forty-five pounds at like five years old which is so small and people just thought it was ingenious little blue really smart guy was always that and I remember people would always pick me up that was the biggest thing that I remember is I don’t think I walked anywhere for like ever because people just felt bad you need to be carried random strangers my brother would always have me on his back he was always giving me back rides because he just couldn’t fathom the blue child walking and so that was the biggest thing I remember about being sick also about having a make-a-wish and then turning to my mother and asking if I was gonna die oh my I mean I remember a lot of stuff so this was a touch-and-go yeah we’ll get into how to go at this point but what was your make-a-wish Disneyland I was five I had siblings Disneyland but does I mean does make a wish does that mean that like okay we don’t know this we don’t know it was before the seven year old it was kind of one of those we don’t know it was uh it was very much a we don’t know we don’t know whether or not you know I mean there’s thirty I remember it dawning on you yeah Disney World Disneyland because I was treating me so wonderfully and I knew I was a sick kid so it was like one of those like I remember turning and I had a Donald like in my hand I turned I was like I’m gonna die and I was like and and I just remember the whole trip like literally we had to be having so much fun of my siblings to be like we’re gonna miss you so dark and so everything in hindsight it’s one of the funniest moments of my life because it’s it’s fantastic what’s your relationship with Disney at this point at Disney at this point it was just heavy it was also like let’s go on the teacups or like kimchi comedy what about now okay can you watch it yeah I can without the plot holes but I can come on Olaf gives the true love you know you know it’s for her clearly yeah figured out but yeah I mean I can do Ivan actually recently was talking about going to Disneyland again cuz when I went when I was younger it was like a kind of dark it was like one of those like I think I like this I have bad memories magical wonderful days but now it’s different I think because another surgery at 13 mm-hmm and was that the final one no I’ll have to have open heart surgeries my whole life it’s a car it’s like a you know like you go and replace the things that are in there and so I mean there’s valves the good thing is is my one I was 13 was supposed to last like maybe six to eight years and now it has last six 16 so it’s kind of like you know that in it of itself is a miracle is this like a pig valve situation it is it’s a bovine valve actually oh you got bovine bovine valve I got bovine valve I got cortex I got wire in the chest I got 37 year old male artery I got all of it I got all really tough yeah so you got a little peep a little another person in there you got an animal a million people’s blood in there so so what okay so what is the the day-to-day with this condition is this the kind of thing that’s like I can’t get too excited because I might have a heart attack you know I can’t do this no I think and I think so much of it is mind over matter it really is because I’ve been to sick groups with with people with my condition and I’m like oh god I am NOT these people like I am so far beyond that and a lot of that was good parenting honestly was my parents going like I’m like I’m gonna run to the river and they’re like great as they’re panicking behind to see if I’m okay but never once did they ever say I couldn’t do anything like honestly ever it was one of those things I remember there was one field trip I couldn’t go on because the elevation was too high and they were like we just can’t like you’re a liability we can’t do it I’m like my school wouldn’t let me and my parents like we’ll take her we’ll make sure she’s okay but I mean I should never have gone up that high in elevation and even now you can’t fly no I can absolutely fight but it’s just like walking like so I could never do Everest I know that now I’m just gonna get two ways it’s gonna oxygen most people can’t do Everest like most people you know like if you have any I cannot you cannot yeah I’m just gonna go on I tried tried it got the base camp and turn back I mean there’s a dead zone if something’s called a dead zone I don’t aspire to go there yeah exactly so no I mean there’s things in that sense but a lot of it is just me going no I can do this I know I can like and pushing yourself and knowing that you’re gonna be okay and I have faith that I’m gonna be okay and and I am a really good governor of myself like I’ve never you know again marathon not gonna happen for me I think I could absolutely if I tried and if I train and if I really felt comfortable with it but how do you know when it’s time for another surgery hey what are the signs that’s the dilemma is that I go every six months I get checked out and I’ll just say you know there’s like valves that are like thickening and closing and so they have to worry about that and then there’s like things like that shunts that are leaking and they have to you know kind of do they do a million-and-a-half tests on you to see you know if this is okay if that’s okay and then they just kind of deduct from there the cool thing about it is that I have a like a killer surgeon a killer killer surgeon he’s like you know top three in the world and so interesting choice of words there yeah sure what he well I just remember like vividly when I was seven he looked like he I think he came off like a ski trip when I when I was like rushing like I don’t goggles yeah like he was just like oh you know he’s this Australian guy that just like came off the ski trip and I was like how does this male model nice he’s a big deal yeah so you seemed to describe the you being born and that happening as a real turning point in your dad’s life I think families life in him beginning to be a pasture again I’m curious what what what’s been your source of strength in coping mechanism I mean there was no turning point that was the beginning of your life but I’m curious if it sounds like that you have a real gift for a sis of humor associate I mean obviously in general but associated this did you always deal with it with a sense of humor what is that something you developed later as a seven as a 13 year old were you able to laugh at this even now I would imagine it’s difficult no it’s not honestly it’s not it’s kind of like the hand that you’re dealt you kind of just I mean that you know it’s odd there are so many worse things that I could have that could have happened in my life but I do I think I I made the decision I actually remember making the decision to to laugh it off to like be it was our in the hospital and my mother was actually there and she says now like she remembers the moment that it happened there was this girl likes me and she was whining to the nurses she was just whining and complaining the whole time and I made I made a joke like I was joking around with the nurses and they loved me and they was more attention it was more like it was a happier environment because I was joking around about stuff and I remember deciding from that moment that I was like oh this can’t be something serious in my life like this can’t be the end-all be-all like it can’t be something that takes everything over because I define you I can’t define you it really can’t can define you in a way that you that it propels you but I can’t like do anything else than that and I remember making a cognitive choice of just being like this is so much easier it’s so much easier to laugh about this it’s so much easier to just joke about all this and find a sense of humor in it it sounds like you always had this instinct for humor as well that you were all were you always the funny girl I was a big part of it was called I was like the funny girl and it was always the chunky girl too so that was like that was hand in hand like okay hand but yeah I was always the weird I mean like class clown in high school like just the weird kid because it’s so much easier and when did you start funneling that into entertaining people um I mean honestly as soon as I could as soon as I could I started and it was I mean I knew I wanted to be an actor pretty much like at a child level child age I was like I want to do this I want him however this can happen however laughter can happen and I can get paid for it I want to do that so then I you know I did stand-up for a couple of years and I really liked it but I didn’t like the scene of it and I it was basically in like in like Yosemite Valley has so many valley no I decided I I was gonna move out to LA my brother had moved to LA and he was he’s an entertainer as well and he’d moved to LA musician’s musician and he’s a he’s a really good actor too but he is an incredible musician and he has taken that road and that road has taken him and so it’s yeah he moved out here and I was like well he’s out there and I can go out there with him and then and then I moved out to LA and what stage are we talking high schooler out of high school right out of high school I was like I know I want to go out there and try it and do it and then I went to Community College and Pasadena crazy theater directors that led me in really great ways because they were actually working actors which is a fascinating thing to me that I had a teacher that was a real working actor and being like instead of like so I watch you on General Hospital you come in here and yeah I see I’ve seen you in Top Gun and now you’re gonna walk done oh yeah he was like one person a Top Gun but he said that paid for multiple homes well yeah so it was like this crazy old man that reminded me of the dude from Big Lebowski that was a big hand and what actually made me go out and do stand-up and do that cuz he was just like you would oh he would always be like you know you’re funny that’s not a thing that happens with women go do it and you just be like alright as misogynistic as it was he was not wrong why why did you why is that I don’t know I mean you know it’s actually a difficult world I think for women it’s just one of those things where there’s multiple facets coming at you of it there’s you I’ve been in the writing room with men where you say one idea no one listens to you someone says the exact same idea and they’re like good job bro and you’re like whew like uh-huh eat it you know so I’ve been in those rooms too and I’ve also been in the weird thing where there’s constantly if we’re gonna get really podium about it there’s an intense sexual ization of women and so immediately I’m not funny if I’m pretty I’m not funny if I am remotely attractive or if I am what’s wrong with me like where did it come I remember sitting in a group of girls like actual comedian girls that I surround myself with out of my friends and we went around the circle when we like what’s wrong with you and it literally was a list of like well I used to be a fat girl like I had issues with my father like this it was like these things that we were all laughing about but it was also a weird thing of like because we had to like push through and find this personality and it’s not saying that these like amazing model type people can’t be funny it’s just there’s it it doesn’t happen not often because they’re sexualized immediately and they don’t need to and you know it’s it’s just a weird thing that I find that it’s actually very very difficult because you know even Tina Fey it’s like well let’s see her be sexy and you’re like does she does she have to be right do we have to boil it down like Amy Poehler oh she’s hideous no make up and you’re like yeah who everyone is autotrophs without makeup like we all look different so it’s just that weird thing that I think from day one people tiptoe around it it’s getting better I do think it’s getting better it’s getting more of an industry I think it’s fascinating when people are like wow women are really coming out in comedy hon you’re like actually Lucille Ball changed the entire freakin television at the point but but sure yeah women are come Alisa McCarthy’s amazing you know like it’s a weird thing where you go like this woman single-handedly changed the way we film television but you know are you saying that a lot of the most successful female comedians are have been damaged in some way or theirs but they’ve had to overcome something I don’t think so I think they’ve had to make a choice I do think that they have had to make a choice of that road to go down I think it’s a weird thing like you have the option now where it’s like in order to choose comedy it’s kind of a hard road like it’s kind of one of those things of like no I want to do this because I love it because it’s funny and like sure like Amy Schumer is beautiful she’s a beautiful girl but she’d made the choice to be like I’m gonna be this brash out-there person I think it is a choice I think it’s one of those things that it’s not because it’s like well you know they’re funny so just like let them go it’s like it for a woman it tends to be a choice it tends to be a choice of not being funny but like really deciding like no I’m gonna be a comedy girl I’m going to be this is what I’m gonna be and it’s okay that everyone’s gonna try and sexualize me are they’re gonna try and not give me a because I’m too unattractive or I’m too this or to that well it seems like you know you were dealing with this in the comedy world yes and III want to connect the dots but I can’t resist the fast-forward – well then you enter the internet world where it’s a it’s the same story maybe even Morris because there’s comments ya know I mean it’s the same and I think it’ll always be the same world I think it really will I think the Internet is more heightened versions of it because people can get behind a keyboard and type things out and and I’ve noticed that a lot and it gets the good thing about the internet is because is that there’s a community of everyone so there are beautiful young women that you see that see you being new and it’s really cool and they go oh this person has a personality and maybe I can too and you know like or this person isn’t you know fixated on this or that different thing about themselves I think you don’t have to check as many boxes of a gatekeeper yes to be your true self and to find ya and every other people who are true being true to themselves as an audience and it’s nice it’s also I mean I don’t know I would have loved like when I’m growing up like I’d the people that I latched on to it was always the weirdos there’s always these weird wonderful women that like you know those were who I latched on to because I was like that’s me are you thinking about someone in particular uh well I was a big gilda radner fan I was a huge Gilda Radner fan and she was just she was weird and she was adorable like yes I know I said no like I said no and also just like in general like any any interview I’ve seen them all like I loved her but she was such a weirdo and I would just I remember just being like I’m okay like I am okay being a weirdo it’s not like anything else like you can be goofy and weird and that’s totally okay and that was like one of those things I’m Amy Poehler is a big one – Sheri Oteri like obviously on SNL – but there are those big people that you grew up with that you’re like oh that’s totally okay like it gives you that release of like when you’re a young girl growing up being like oh there’s plenty there’s dozens of us so you get to LA you’re you’re doing the the community college thing yes and you are trying to find roles going to auditions like what was the worldís story was i I was goofy I did a whole bunch of theater and you know at the Community College and then I had a teacher that was like that that big lebowski dude he was like I need to do stand-up he was like I need you to write me like a seven minute set of stand-up and I was like he’s like do it and so I did that and then he actually was the one that booked me like a million my teacher booked me a million different gigs really yeah doing stand-up he’s a magic like it was one of those big people in my life like that was my Good Will Hunting everybody go that’s a good teacher that’s a teacher take me to the first stand-up because that sounds terrifying it was terrifying it was terrifying it was in the stupid little coffee shop in Pasadena and remember doing it and being like I don’t hate this like I don’t I did it and I was just like and then I remember a big part of it was actually like being able to like mess with the crowd and talk with the crowd interact with the crowd and I was like I really don’t hate this on any level and then I decided to keep doing it and then did you know different things I went to the ice house I did all these different little things I didn’t take it as far as Hollywood I did like college stuff and then I went I decided to keep going and then it was just a really acerbic kind of thing that I was just like in this comedy world of really angry people that are very upset that they didn’t get it do a set on you know Leno and was that you mean the people that you had to people that I hang out had to hang out with and I I mean like it it’s a it’s a tough world for anyone because again that’s just you which is you putting forward your stuff you hoping that people pick it up it depends it’s such a weird thing because there’s rooms are different every night people are different there a night it’s and especially for comedy like I don’t make people laugh do that is that when you switched to more of an improv Lane yeah it was more I and then I’d always heard I grew up learning The Groundlings and knowing about Groundlings and everyone that I’d loved had been a part of the growling so Cheri Oteri Melissa McCarthy and you know like all these wonderful amazing Kristen Wiig these wonderful amazing women had been a part of it and so I was like I have to give this a whirl so I auditioned for it and then got into classes and it’s a huge long process yeah there’s a whole there’s a whole system right where a whole system it’s all hierarchy it’s all crazy and again it’s all comedy so it shouldn’t be that you start I mean you start I’ve never done it and I’ve just kind of heard that there’s you take classes then you move to a team where you’re performing but then there’s the hierarchy that you’re talking about as different teams that perform and on different nights or different times there’s more high profile that’s it’s a that’s more the UCB that Groundlings is like a class you wait and then you take another class and if you pass that class you get to go into this Writing Lab and if you pass a writing lab if you don’t pass a writing line be done with the program like cut from the whole program completely and then if you do writing lab so it’s all it’s a sudden death process every every point even when you get into the pinnacle of the school which is Sunday company which is every single week you are writing Monday Tuesday Wednesday and Wednesday you pitch Thursday you decide what goes in the show Friday you’re getting costume Saturday rehearse Sunday it’s up it’s live it’s a brand-new show every single week and I did that for a year and a half in this last year and it was so year and a half of my life where I probably pitched over 2,000 sketches Wow over and over again probably performed about I know I performed about two hundred and thirty or two and thirty two is my final number of like how many sketches I performed which is insane and you just go and you do this brand new show every single week and even in that they vote on you every six months like wasn’t you saying and again at the end of the day it’s like it’s comedy you know like it’s JJ Abrams didn’t pass a program so hmm you know cuz he’s not a good writer like I was like I’m in a mistake so there’s people along the way that like don’t even get into the program that you’re like sweet Dee from It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia who I think is phenomenal Kaitlin Olson she made like one term and Sunday company and I was like but you made it soon I’m fresh you’re fresh off of coming all the way through the process two and a half year process it was well in I love my life it was a six year process you know I should have a doctorate so yeah what’s supposed to be the the goal is that you get into the main company Groundlings the goal is that but there’s a lot of people that get cut along the way I was like one of those people that that happened to where it was just like you know thank you so much for the year and a half like we don’t see a place for you in the main company growling and you’re like okay great we move on how does that I mean is that a dramatic point in your life because what is it what is that last moment is it cut does it come down to one performance and then get a report card no you would think it would how does it work how did it work for you specifically it worked for me specifically I did a year and a half of stuff I did a year and a half of you know crazy madness I grew a lot I had these phenomenal teachers that you know really shaped me along the way one of them was very akin to JK Simmons role in whiplash she I mean she is a intense like she’s a comedy Nazi but she made everyone magnificent and fantastic and like it was a weird moment when I was like when she was giving someone attitude and she was like name a person that you like that’s from this school I’ve taught them and I was like she’s not you know she gave that speech like Will Ferrell taught him and you’re like that’s very fair um you know so it’s all those people that you go well I can’t deny this woman’s 28 years of comedy knowledge right and you painted to go through in hindsight whenever you’re explaining it to anyone else in the world they’re like why why would you do this but at the end of the day you perform every week on a stage that like your favorite people have performed on like I’ve touched the same areas that Melissa McCarthy and Kristen Wiig and like Jim rush and all these like Will Ferrell take it back to like Jon Lovitz Phil Hartman like all these people there’s some insane it’s real amazing that you just go I love this you’re a part of something that legacy something a legacy but then it comes down to a decision yeah it’s not how does that work it’s I think it’s I mean it’s all very illuminating but I mean are you locked in a cell and they slide like well it’s basically they all go in a room and they vote and see if that person goes on to the main company if they don’t and would that mean being part of the main company we would mean how would that change your life you know I think it used to mean a lot more I think it would normally change people’s I was because it was a bigger deal like it was one of those things where it was like you know you got on the wall and you know Lisa Kudrow and and Kathy Griffin both you know Groundlings alum and so they got on the wall and then they’re like oh well the main company groundling great like give her a role on this and fantastic and then they move on but now it’s just a different world it’s just a different like people are they’re a lot longer and staying a lot and it’s just a different thing for me it was like a hard blow of like you know I was disappointed I was very disappointed I didn’t make it because it’s you’re always going up to like an end goal of something but immediately right afterwards I realized the people in my company that had been cut from the program as well we’re like these amazing people that I was like oh I’d rather be in this like when I look back at like who has been there along the way but it okay but I there’s that moment I think it’s it’s a system that most people can’t relate to but I think what we can all relate to is that moment of decision where it’s you were told was it a person who told you yeah it was a director that told me like the vote didn’t go your way and you go okay but in all fairness I had been to Burning Man had got my tarot cards read and they said in my tarot cards that it wasn’t gonna go my way so that was your response it was a guy in a bathrobe that was reading right here like I couldn’t were in the middle of the desert in the bathroom reading my tarot cards I can’t you know is eating a chewy granola bar but busy so you see me prepared I said I prepared for the moment because of the Tower of Terror card that was but see even I think that’s the beauty of it even right now you exhibit it is the the humor as an ability to process disappointment yeah I mean you’re telling us that every six months you’re having an experience like that where a guy in a bathrobe or a medical gown or whatever they doctors wear these days I don’t think they or tarot card it come scrubs link and you’re having to give that response its I mean I can make the argument that you’re you’re conditioned on a heart level yes get a little cheesy here to to to to to dominate in this atmosphere in this in the world of entertainment because it’s everyone talks about it’s a series of rejections until you get what you want yeah it really is yeah it really is where you get a little bit or do you even want life you get what you want you know it really is like it’s not just this industry because it’s every it’s every industry it’s just or is it even about getting what you want or is it even more about not getting what you want no I can’t help but think that the your transition to the Internet and the success of SourceFed also also makes that a little easier to take because you know you could that not that it’s necessarily safety net I don’t want to use the wrong analogy but it wasn’t you didn’t have all your hopes tied up in that right no I did this because you were already doing something that my you know it’s like when you get to create you know it’s like you get to create what you say that that’s a really nice thing being a key master it’s a beautiful thing being like I’m the master of my domain like I know what the voice is that I’m putting out into the world they don’t have to worry about anyone else writing stuff for me I don’t have to worry about anything and that’s a beautiful thing so I think it did help a lot in that sense where I just go well you know like we shake it off and move on and you know I’m still doing what I love still doing what I want to do I just quoted your Walmart CD I did also Mariah Carey oh um you know did you how did you see the SourceFed opportunity when it came about and what how did that happen honestly um it was it was such a random thing it was I I didn’t on it I honestly had no I I mean I knew about the internet because I a weld a lot but uh but I didn’t know like it was just one of those things that I had I had an agent at the time that was like hey here’s this thing but the good news is you get to write your own stuff and what do you think and I went into some weird hole in the wall audition place and I remember there was they were also auditioning models that day but not for source but for something else and I just remember walking and going like I don’t think I’m in the right place here and it was just we got pop culture news things that we had to give our own opinions on and I had no idea who Philip DeFranco was it was filling the room at this point no I was just the producers and it was actually I remember the person that put me it at most huge was Danny Rosenberg like she’s amazing and she works for Phil and she’s at the offices all the time and she laughed and remember being like oh thank god like there’s someone laughing here because it was a hard room it was actually a kind of a difficult room and then you was like all these dudes and Joe was one of those that was like you know he comes off so intense at first but I was just like you were auditioning for Joe I was auditioning with Joe with Joe with Joe and I auditioned with Steve and I auditioned with Elliott as well so they were already in they were already I don’t know if they know she was saying they were they were all I remember Joe came off really intense at first when I was like nah man I make this kid my friend and I like immediately just started being very lovey to him and he you know melted like a stick of butter and it was just one of those very I don’t know it was just I remember ranting about pop culture things and them not thinking about it again until they called like not even thinking it was just one of those like well I’m in a hole in the wall like once again a hole in the wall where I get to do this I do remember getting really excited about having my own opinion about something and being able to put that straight forward and then it was I mean I guess the rest is history you got through the gauntlet and yeah we’re the main host but it was a crash course in Internet and yeah and Internet yeah yeah so what was that like what was that process of okay I’m on this thing if you hadn’t been watching youtube videos yeah know anything about the world and all of a sudden you’re a face of a very popular thing yeah I mean I was honestly was one of those like I I had no idea what I was getting into I had no idea what I was getting into I remember the first week Elliott Morgan made me sign up for Twitter because I was like what’s Twitter and he was like good god like so he made my Twitter name he made my Twitter hit like handle he set me up on Twitter and then you know I mean it was actually very overwhelming but I was just like I think were a part of something I think we’re a part of something it was one of those like I think this is a big deal I think this is like I think we’re actually part of something I do also remember the best thing about it was that those boys I remember being like I for once I’m in a room and the two men that see me 100% is an equal that are writing for me 100% is an equal if not writing better parts for me than they were writing for themselves like it was a really beautiful thing of like these people coming together that had the same humor the same intention and I don’t know if that was a beautiful happy accident I don’t know if that was just something that you know people saw but it was what it was and I remember that was the biggest thing for me is being in the room with those two boys and going like oh my god this is gonna be something because we love each other because we’re so excited and because we get each other on a humor level that is very rare to be honest like it’s we’re stepping it you are stepping into an established system yeah hierarchy where there’s already this is kind of like think we’re gonna do this and then it changed a lot from I think the original what people wanted it to be it was just supposed to be their very opinionated this and instead you had these two people that did love the humor side of it and did love all that and so I think it changed a lot with intention with the intention and it became what it was but I remember that was that was the biggest thing that I remember going oh this is gonna be something because we all really like each other and we all get along and this is so much fun you know so that was a really big awakening for me when you first remember knowing that you’d become internet famous when we were doing the maximum thing that was the creepiest and the craziest and most wonderful thing ever yeah tell us about that it was just I I think our producer said it as a joke and then the boys are what I said there’s a maximum Hot 100 List where you write in people what if we because someone put it in the comments like a whole bunch of people were like we should Willie in there blah blah blah blah blah and I think it was a big thing for the producer to be like I wonder if we could actually do this I wonder if we could actually you know like it was more of just a second producer thinking just being like what does our army entail right now and so and then I was like guys I gonna happen and the boys check it on immediately and they’re like oh no and so they made a video and I remember they were like oh we crashed the site no like oh in what world is this a thing they Joe and Eliot right doing Eliot we’re like they kind of jumped on board with it they were like oh yeah like let’s just see it was it was I think a big part of it was like let’s see if we could do this like it wasn’t at for me it was like you know and so they send people to the site to vote rumor has it that Maxim then installed a CAPTCHA yes for you and they had crashed the site multiple times I mean that is the power of the Internet well and and now the net result is well you were on the hot 100 and and you have a you have a Maxum profile people can which is not something I never thought I would ever be able to say I had the most close on to if anyone ever okay so it you find it funny how do you feel about it I mean it’s one of those baffling things to me like I don’t get it I’m like sure okay like if you meet me you might think differently cuz I fart on the Reg so do the rest of the girls on the way sure sound like flowers and whispers coming out but but you know I mean it’s kind of one of those baffling things like I don’t get it but I’ll go along with it sure and in a weird way it’s kind of nice to be like I feel like I might want to be one of the only normal people that actually eats you know normal stuff and you know actually I don’t know I might be one of the normal people and then that’s kind of nice for me for me I’m like oh I’m normal and I my boobs are barely showing there’s a cleavage line and that’s about it and it could be my scars no no but that was what nothing to that they were like scarves like absolutely not you cannot photos that it’s mine no scars no proof like ain’t happening and then yeah that was a big thing about I was like I was gonna be in a leather jacket I demanded to be covered mainly because I was like I have a mother and father so there’s there’s two there’s there’s two sides to what you’re saying right now there’s the one side of I love this position of strength and confidence and who you are yeah and but I know even in the most recent video you talked about it’s true of everyone we’re all self-conscious you know you you put it out there you’re talking about your self-image yeah talking about that people commenting are you pregnant and how you want to lose weight you know you’ve got so that’s the other side of it is there is a there’s a self-consciousness too I guess yes of course I mean I think there is with everyone I mean it is it’s there’s harsher things on women but there’s harsher things on men – in a different world in a different world of providing and and where are you 6-8 success for men is a woman’s body like women’s sexual images how men you know in their success like that’s that’s the equivalent in my mind so it’s a weird thing like I mean there are still self-conscious things I’ve grown up with it like it’s been I’ve been a chubby kid since since puberty which I think did for him a lot of who I am and did for him a lot of just like I’m gonna make you my friend not through you wanting anything from me but through me making you laugh you know and I think that was a big part of it I think self-consciousness is just one of those things that is human nature I said in the vlog recently that like really the only thing I’ve struggled with more than my weight is the idea that it defines me is the idea that it defines my self-worth because it is such a weird thing that like even going on and auditioning for roles like they’ll be like oh we want like a heavier girl and you’re like great so you get there and then they’re like no like no like a heavier girl you’re like okay then they go we want a normal girl you go to something and they go no like a normal girl so no matter what you’re putting these different brackets of like it shouldn’t matter it shouldn’t matter but it does and that’s the unfortunate world that we live in is that you know for me it was the weight-loss thing was like I don’t want to be any part of what holds me back in this world you know I mean like I I don’t want to hold myself back I don’t want to be the person that has enough talent and enough Drive to go places but because the world sees me in a certain light or doesn’t see me as normal or sees me it’s a thicker girl or sees me as this like I know that I’m not ever going to be the leading lady but I’ll always be the quirky friend when it comes to a NBC sitcom I’m ok with that because that’s a way more fun role but it’s just that thing of you know the self-conscious factor always plays and I think it does with everyone so for me it was more of a thing of I would rather not get those comments of are you pregnant again I’m not happen some day but it’s just you know those things of for me it was more along lines of not getting rid of those comments but feeling better about myself in the sense of you know taking control because controls a big part of it you know for the last year and a half I was doing sketch comedy which lends itself to a lot of horrible food midnight and 3:00 a.m. decisions and right it lends itself to you sitting in front of a computer all day every day you rarely hike onion but they you know being in the Maxim Hot 100 is kind of a victory and turning that on its ear and saying I’m gonna do it on my terms and yeah you’re not gonna change who I am and and at the same time is a victory for the internet because we get to decide who we say it’s hot yes not some mag airbrushed magazine exactly and I think that is a big part of it you know I don’t know I think that is one of those things of I feel like I mean it’s people like Meghan tonjes who I love so much because she has that like body revolution the bootie revolution where she’s just like I’m taking we’re changing the idea of what defines a person that’s a big deal so the maximum thing is a touch point it’s a touch by touch point for your fame another one another one we got the inside scoop because Kevin our producer is friends with your boyfriend uh-huh yeah yeah yeah and so we hear there’s a target story being recognized yeah yeah there is it was like actually probably one of the most mildly it’s pretty embarrassing actually I really get embarrassed but this is one of those where we got embarrassing story I uh um well I was in a target with my boyfriend and I I think I’m a lot to handle but uh he wanted to go to the home section I did not so I proceeded to throw a fit where in which I laid down on the ground and just decided to not go on you’re on my back like I was like I’m not going I’m not doing it I can’t move like if you want to go to home section you drag me come the classic toddler which I tend to do a lot actually it’s I find it hilarious but and also get you get your way guys as a there were two year old woman that won’t move in laying down it but you were doing it for Communities doing okay he was laughing it wasn’t like a thing like I was doing it for comedic effect okay I can’t I don’t I don’t possibly have a target home good section like rant I don’t have in writing in me left all that being said I’m still getting very nervous at least like no no and some target employee came up to me and I thought like he’s gonna like man get off the floor and instead he was like are you Lee Newton I was like and it was probably the most biggest victory for my boyfriend because it was just like see you can’t do gotta watch yourself so that was a big defining moment of I was like oh I think I might not be able to do weird things in public anymore I think and if I do at least it will be part of my brain right well and now now that The Groundlings thing is gonna come yes you know to an end which I can only imagine how crazy your schedule was it was about it was like fifty hour workweek sketch comedy plus on top of it yeah so I mean what does it look like now and what are you doing with that extra time and I know one of them is focusing more on your personal check yeah one of them is focusing more on my personal Channel another one I just got done with this CBS diversity showcase which I am Native American no one would ever be able to tell because I have a fantastic colorist and because my father’s vicious Irish side took over but that was a big thing I did and you know I mean now it’s it’s going into the personal channel now it’s a weird thing of pilot season there’s a weird part of me that like I love the Internet I love that I still love acting I love acting and doing all that stuff too so it’s that weird I have agents and managers that I’ll pitch you to crazy weird things and so you know right now when you say it’s pilot season is it the casting phase like you’re you’re auditioning auditioning for pilots everywhere and you know doing all this crazy you know weird stuff and I mean we’re like I mean example examples are like I mean you just it’s making an ass of yourself for comedy again but it’s in an audition in an audition where you have to like take it so you know like there’s every sitcom there’s you know hyperboles of people it’s just like they’re just like okay now this girl’s a valley girl but she’s so Chih valley girl so you have to go in and you dress the part and you go in and just like oh my god no wait what’s happening how is this happening and you’re like this is a ridiculous thing that ABC will never pick up but you gotta go you have to go for it you have to be those people that go for all those different things of like oh and then with this one they want like a room and I just mean you have to go for the part I meant you have to go for it you have to go all the world the way you’re performing yes because there’s you know again there’s different key masters that are in charge of that world you know there’s an patent also had a really great thing and he talked about in a just for last commencement speech that was really wonderful but it was he was talking about how the Internet is redefining the keymaster the Internet has you know and he was he held up his iPhone he’s like there’s more power in this than when Orson Welles you know made Citizen Kane and you’re like crap that’s totally true so it’s unless the battery’s dead exactly it’s kind of nice to have both facets though to like sit there and I mean I see things like I loved being a part of my music I walked on set of my music and I had all these this crew in this set and I was like holy crap this is legit like this is a legit thing I’m looking at a legit schedule I’m learning how to be in this world through an internet thing which is fascinating to me and it’s kind of really exciting too so there’s multiple different things I’m trying out this world and it seems like the pattern of SourceFed is people are on SourceFed and then they do it for a while and they move on to something else something else so what’s the story with you as that I’m the last of five of the first three which is a weird feeling to feel because you’re always like you know I mean I miss my boys completely but I do know that there’s like tremendous new talent coming in and that’s really exciting to see I would like to think of it like that is an SNL type place where you know Phil Hartman comes back and does something Mike Meyers come back comes back and hosts for me it’s one of those I don’t know when I will be leaving SourceFed I know that it’s not long for me I know that it’s not it’s not my end goal and I think anyone that knows me knows that it’s not my end goal do I always like hold a place where do I always plan on still having my face on that channel as long as I possibly can and popping in doing that absolutely because I still believe in it and I still think it’s like such a wonderful place for stuff and so I don’t I have no idea where I stand in the sense of like actually that taking over and right now I’m even down to like I’m not there as much as I used to be you know because other stuff in my life has taken over but I do still think it’s such a wonderful place and I’ll always be that person that like pops in and does a comment commenting on Weekend Update you know like so it’s just there’s things like that but I don’t know how much longer I am gonna be there I know that it is going in really great directions I think that it has different things for a lot of different people and and I I hope to be there in some respect kind of always well let me ask you an easier planning question since you bring it up I mean so I mean when are you gonna have a baby oh god it’s really let’s look it’s like a subliminal think about it guys um I don’t know I have no idea I have a niece she’s killer she’s like really doing great on the knees front and after about four hour I go whoa these are a lot of work I don’t know you’re the one you’ve mentioned it number a number of times I was just wanted to make sure I know well it’s one of those things that you just have to let everyone know I’m not going to it’s a weird thing as a woman there’s so much things that it’s like I wish if if someone else could have it oh man I’d have four but four or five at least I think I want a dog first and then I start with a dog okay but I do love dogs I really do love dogs but that would be if must love dogs wasn’t already a romantic comedy that would be my romantic comedy dog but I do love animals and so I feel like that’s a good start right is animals before babies Korea before animals all that so what’s the name of the dog you don’t have or the kid that you don’t have the name of innocent one that I don’t have will be timer timer timer cool name don’t steal it anyone I’m just letting you know without like I would a T IME okay and when did you choose who I am here I heard it once and I was like dude that’s the Coon me what what grade were you in it wasn’t someone’s name it was a swim they said timers a lot of timers that’s basically a guy’s name timer I like I like really interesting names I like names that are occupations so that’s a great one it’s either cobbler so you know cobbler is the dog’s name sniper beef beef or it’s knife depending I need to see the dog but snarfer are snart’s Newton out but snarf is a real one that I’ve a new smell constantly about wanting a snare I knew that you had thought about these names I know of course talk about I had a vivid dream three nights ago that I adopted this dog named buster and I remember like texting my boyfriend and being like Oh God like I’m broken I woke up I did not realize this cannot be it he doesn’t want a dog now of course he wants one but it I think he’s probably tired of me going like good we’re gonna get a dog figure it out like let’s get a dog already dream dogs mean dogs that’s right Matt get a career get a dog we’ll get that pin I’d love to design the price table finest space this is a lot of fun it’s great to hang out thank you guys got a lot of podium talk good we need to mean who knows also removing to remind everyone that I mainly based my humor in farts so you know I mean it can’t all be you know that’s like really how much validity does she have a second that instinct you know oh nice I put it over there there’s an EXO and there’s three exclamation points really excited thanks Lee thank you [Music] there it is our ear biscuit with Lee Newton super appreciative to leave for coming in and being at the round table of dim light let her know what you think by tweeting at her her handle is Lee Newton says Lee Newton says so check ear biscuit for that hashtag and let her know what she thought of this I gotta say that I when I was listening to Lee talked about this Jam that she’s been making hmm I try not to be too overzealous but I was expressing a distinct interest in it oh yeah I picked up on that you were you really perked up in and she started writing about Jam well I want to be on the list I want to be on the list Lee that’s the deal I want to be on the list when she makes that Jam I want her to have a red jar well I mean she basically said that I’m in if I give her some of my dad’s barbecue sauce so I mean you could we could work out a distribution but y’all from her to me to you it but you also said that your dad can’t ship the barbecue sauce he brings it out like from a trailer Christmastime but she also said that he can ship it out and that he’s holding out on me and so I have to have a conversation with my dad it’s like what yeah what dad is it not shippable okay so this is how it works you ship the barbecue sauce no your dad ships the barbecue sauce to you you hand deliver the barbecue sauce to Lee it’s a big jug you get two jars of jam you bring about you give me one that’s sound like a deal I’m missing a one-component what do you give me money I gave you the idea the I expressed interest you gave me the distribution yeah yeah yeah I’m the facilitator I’m the facilitator facilitator gets a cut cut a jam like boysenberry y’all you’re boysenberry I like all jams jellies yeah that’s for the birds what’s Jam what’s the real difference do you know I know it when I see it I’ve always thought that the Jam had more fruit in it and the jelly was just like a gelatin yeah something what’s it preserves preserves our Jam to me no I think preserves you can put things in them like you can interchange things in them like a dead animal you can put you could preserve like a little chicken in a and jam in preserves I’m sure that the music came in a long time ago right I know that they’re gonna keep talking about the difference these jellies jams it preserves but but you ear biscuit ear are on your way out and yeah but we’re gonna keep talking about it but you should I I’ll preserve anything especially if it’s Jam okay well you said that your biscuit ears were all no way out and that’s fine as long as they find their way back in next week because we will be here I was gonna say same time same place but I mean we will but you can enjoy this whenever you want to any time any place will be here shove us in your ears no shove this in your ears I like that new slogan okay see you next week [Music] [Music]